The Staff in Your Hands

As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. They were terrified and cried out to the Lord. They said to Moses, “Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn’t we say to you in Egypt, ‘Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians’? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!”

Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14:10-14)

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The gospel
        sings from the pages
        of the Bible
        even in the Exodus:
"The Lord will fight for you;
you need only be still."

Why can I not
be still?

Be still, my child
         my beloved,
         my joy.
Be still and know
     that all you need is already there,
     that the battle's already won,
     that your life is a victory,
                          not a defeat.
Be still and know that I am God:
      I intend what is good

                    to be done in great ways.

      Your salvation today

               is part of my masterpiece

               as well as my master plan.

      Your enemies are real -

               they oppose you and me

               but you will overcome them.

               My wind is at your back,

               my staff is in your hands,

               their trap will become my path

               their army will become my triumph.

Lord, why can I not

          be still?

Your war has taken your peace.

Your fear has taken your hope.

Your doubt has taken your trust.

Your worry has displaced your prayer.

Surrender to the peace only I can give.

    Remember your hope.

        Build your trust.

            Come near in prayer.

And your stillness

                will lead you forward

                                      into victory.

A City Prepared for Me

They admitted they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country - a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them. (Hebrews 11:13-16)

I looked to the hills,

the mountains called out to me.

A spirit of wandering invaded my soul,

but with no spirit of fear in it,

rather a longing

for pilgrimmage.

A stranger to everyone,

I sometimes don't recognize myself,

when such longings find me

and I give them shelter.

They come

and beckon me onward.

They say, "You don't belong here."

Often I have let these voices

move me to self-pity

instead of energize me

to seek that far country,

that fair country,

which is my own

and which owns me.

No, the longing and its voice

calls me outward and onward

and I may need to pack and prepare

for this journey today,

but I do not need to hide and escape

like some criminal or refugee

running for my life

in fear and anguish.

That's not leaving at all

but just delving deeper

into what 

I need to leave behind.

I take in hand my staff,

the discplines that discipline me

for the long walk

by steadying my legs

and strengthening my hands

for a better place,

a richer country

with less things and worries

and more heart and hope.

It's not really a place at all

but finding my place.

The song of mountains and hills

calls out to me

and reminds me

that my place is elsewhere

not forever running away from

what is in front of me,

but running further on

a path set before me,

where the air crackles

with possibility,

where the ground itself moves

me forward,

and the sky announces,

"I am not ashamed of you

or ashamed to be yours."

Pilgrimmage

means there's a place ahead for me

in the here and now,

means I am a stranger

but not an outcast,

means there's a journey,

but not an escape,

means a city prepared for me

not one I have to build,

but one I need seek and discover.

The First Gleam of Dawn

 I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and who ever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this? (Jesus, John 11:25)

Live

even though you are dying.

Live

in the twilight hours

between two ages.

 

Some say

"Life is not a dress rehearsal."

But it is!

In life we can get busy living

or we can get busy dying.

Practice makes perfect.

Is it sunrise

or sunset?

Will you embrace

the coming darkness

or the coming dawn?

Die.

Let it go.

Die

to whatever keeps you from life.

Die

even as you embrace life

in the One who lives.

His words to you

will speak you through

all manner of death

into resurrection.

His breath

to fill your lungs

and his belief

to keep your heart beating.

Always.

And forever.

 

The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn,

shining ever brighter till the full light of day. (Proverbs 4:18)

 

 

Make a Way

 I am the voice of one calling in the desert, "Make straight the way of the Lord." (John 1:23)

A desert may not be the best place to gather a crowd, but it may be the best place to make disciples. We can learn from being hot and hungry when the lessons are about real food and drink.

In preparing, we find our way. Perhaps the best preparation is realizing we what we are doing is not satisfying our hunger or thirst.

Before we hear a voice that calls, "Follow me," we will hear a voice that calls, "Make straight the way." Leaving one path will open our eyes to another one.

But beware of visuals. Often the voice calls out in the darkness. "Too much" and "too many" can clutter the way. The desert can open our ears and eyes to the silence and solitude it brings.

 

It is the dry places and times in our lives that need the water most. This is hard, because they are dry for a reason. But it is also easy, because the dry land drinks most readily.

 

All that is gold does not glitter;

Not all who wander are lost.

The old that is strong does not wither.

Deep roots are not reached by the frost. (Tolkien)

The Way Out

The snare has been broken,

  and we have escaped. 

-Psalm 124:7

Faith is reaching out

             to the hand

             that breaks the snare

             and sets us free

             to become

             who and what

             we were meant to be

             as individuals

             and as a people.

It begins with a trusted word

               of a distant place of hope

               and a means

               to travel there.

It is a quality more than a decision,

       a discovery more than a doctrine,

       a yearning with its careful calculation,

       and a road with its shining destination.

In the end, our faith is

          what we believe

          is the only way

          out

          of this mess.

What fault did your fathers find in me,

  that they strayed so far from me?

They followed worthless idols

  and became worthless themselves.

-Jeremiah 2:5

 

Now Is the Time

We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. As God's fellow workers we urge you not to receive God's grace in vain. For he says,

"In the time of my favor I heard you,

  and in the day of salvation I helped you."

I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation. (2 Corinthians 6:1-2)

Implore. Urge. Now is the time. Is there a better time? What could keep us waiting? It is clear that God has not changed. His heart has always been for each of us and all of us. So what are we waiting for?

Maybe all we want is forgiveness. All we want is to be let off the hook. Really at the heart of that "forgiveness" is the desire to be rid of God, just to get him off our backs. The forgiveness that God offers is for reconciliation. It is to make things right between us. As a lexicon puts it: "to reestablish proper friendly interpersonal relations after these have been disrupted or broken." God does not want to just make us right and merely obedient; he wants to live with each and every one of us in a paradise where we can work and walk with him in the "cool of the day," just like old times.

This reconciliation goes even further. God would have us become his very own righteousness. He wants to re-form us into all that is so right and so good about God: becoming like Christ, full of love, joy, peace, hope, and faith. He wants to be with us and in us so that we might enter into "an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands," be "clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life." (2 Corinthians 5:1,4) We will become all that we are supposed to be.

The day of salvation is today, not only after we leave these bodies ("tents"). Eternal life is a conversational relationship with the only true God and with Jesus Christ whom he sent. (John 17:3) Eternal life is the same thing as the abundant life promised by Jesus (John 10:10). Eternal life can start now and continue on forever. . . or not. Salvation is not merely an experience, but a whole string of experiences stretching into eternity. Salvation is a life or it is nothing at all.

What is it like to receive something in vain? It would be like taking a gift that someone gave you and putting it into permanent storage or even throwing it away. It would be like receiving an education and forgetting all that you learned or even undermining it in all you do. It would be like finding a treasure and keeping safe, but never investing or spending it. Is it possible for God's reconciliation to be shelved, forgotten, and left unspent? Tragically, it happens all the time.

Put simply, we may just not really want God or a relationship with him. We may want his favor and his gifts, but what Jesus really came to give was reconciliation. A relationship put right. Those who work with God try to make this opportunity known, as God has always been doing, holding open his arms, holding out his hands. He calls out to you, "Come home from that distant land. Follow me and learn me. Be filled with the kind of Spirit and life I have." "If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" (2 Corinthians 5:17) What are you waiting for?

From Praise to Worship

 From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets,

  the name of the Lord is to be praised. (Psalm 113)

As nice as church services can be, as helpful as it is to have a time and place to gather with other Christ-learners, it is a disservice to this passage to think of a constant church service. Church services are potentially very helpful, but they are not life. Unfortunately, they are often places to identify with a certain ideology rather than walk with others with Jesus. Worship is identified as a church service will end up poisoning this text.

The other problem is that God may receive praise, but he is looking for worship. More specifically - he is looking for worshipers. We know mouths praise, but hearts worship. Jesus criticized some who drew near to God with their mouths while their hearts were far from him. This is the problem. How do we draw near with our hearts, worship him in spirit?

This may seem to contradict what was just said, but we can draw near with our mouths. When I was in high school, I could cuss the wallpaper off a wall, espcially at the video game arcade (what is that?). I wanted to stop cussing, so I began with my mouth. I changed the words into something less offensive. Then I began to just cuss on the inside. Then I just would get angry. Then I started dealing with my anger.

What happened? Well, when I cut off the automatic flow of anger that spewed out of my mouth, I became much more aware of its presence inside. I realized I was an angry person. I did not think that was inevitable because of Jesus and his teaching and his life and his words to me. So with his help I began to deal with my anger, my fear, and my distrust of God.

Similarly, in the opposite direction, if a person praises God all day long, and not just in front of other people, he will likely become aware of what is on the inside. Is there worship? Is there gratitude? If not, the praise will ring hollow and empty. Then that person is in a position to change. . . or give up. This is where to grace of God comes in: strength for change, mercy for failure.

Discipline is what you can do with your body to bring about change in your heart and soul. It's good to think about it, but not enough. It's good to talk about it, but not enough. Discipline is the nest where the Holy Spirit can roost in our lives. Without it, our relationship with God remains abstract and distracted. Our hearts end up far from him.

So the Psalmist emphasizes a moral imperative of God's worth and our need: worship and praise. Yet he also is speaking wisdom about how life is best lived. Discpline will destroy your life witht God if it becomes righteousness instead of wisdom. That is the trap of legalism, externalism. Instead of allowing discipline to eat you alive, learn how to be nourished and strengthed by your discipline. Become a Christ-learner more than a Christ-pleaser. He will be pleased with your learning. He will grow you from the inside out.

All Things Are Possible in the With-God Life

 With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God. (Mark 10:27)

The other day someone asked me if I was a positive person. I had trouble answering. Inside I feel full of doubt and distrust, but often when I open my mouth, I am compelled to say something good or even hopeful. I do not think this is all bad. Sometimes the words I need to hear come unexpectedly from my own mouth.

This verse, however, is not so much about positivity, but proximity. Most people are familiar with "all things are possible with God." I think we often say, "All things are possible for God," but that is not what this says or means. The Greek word para used with God in the dative has this sense: "with persons to denote proximity, as in Lk.9:47, being at home or in a household, and presence, fellowship, or sphere of influence." (TDNTA) Being with God is what makes all things possible for us.

On the other hand, being with humanity alone is what makes things impossible. It is not because people are bad necessarily, but because they are finite. The bad part comes when people do not recognize their finitude and do not seek God for his strength and grace. Instead we rely on ourselves and our movements and ideas to solve our problems.

History teaches us one important thing about humanity. Human problems cannot be solved by human solutions. We are not enough individually or corporately to handle the problems we have. It was never meant to be this way. This can make one hopeless or it can help one put hope and faith in the right place: in a life with God.

Sold for Nothing, Bought with Love

This is what the Lord says:

  "You were sold for nothing,

    and without money you will be redeemed." (Isaiah 52:3)

In the song in Oliver! when the orphan Oliver is being sold by the cruel overseer of the orphanage, he sings these words: "One boy, boy for sale, he's going cheap. . . ." For some reason this song comes to my mind at times. He's trying to get rid of Oliver and doesn't care how. Being "sold for nothing" is the story of this present age. How often have I sensed someone was eager to be rid of me? How often have I been eager to get rid of myself, selling my own birthright for nothing or worse?

How easily will I sell my integrity? Or my ability? Or my loved ones? I sell them for a small reprieve from pain or a few seconds of "looking good" or my own sense of importance. What a waste!

The irony is that I sell my life, my true self as God's beloved, for so little and I am not bought back in the same way at all. The payment is not in money or mere recompense, but in blood and sweat for my sake before I knew any better. I am not ransomed by paying back my debts, but by someone taking my side and my place. I am set free by another willing to be a slave and showing me how to serve, the "Servant of all."

And then, the irony deepens. I am set free to serve again, but to a different master. Instead of obsessive desire and overwhelming fear holding the whip, I am able to serve God and others with freedom and, therefore, love. In the end, we are redeemed not with money or suffering or punishment, but with an abiding love that will not let us go. It frees us and infects us at the same time, making us sick with a goodness like Jesus has, a goodness that flows from the inside out. 

Ears Ready for Planting

 Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop - thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times what was sown. (Mark 4:20)

There are people you pour your life into and they just take and take and produce nothing. This does not stop us from continuing to fill that hole. Sometimes it is out of love. Sometimes it is out of habit. Sometimes it is merely a willfulness to make someone else into what we want.

The parable of the sower and the seed talks about such relationships. There are relationships like black holes, their are fair-weather friends, there are people who love beginnings, but have no interest in enduring to the end. But then there are some people who seem ready to hear and respond and grow. Here, the seed easily received by these people is a word from God. The smallest encouragement draws such people into deep feeling and great deeds. They do not seem to have been inoculated against Jesus and his words, but drink them like water in a desert.

Receptivity needs two wings to fly. One wing is knowing good news when we hear it. The offer to place the control of our lives under God does not sound like good news to everyone. That is because the other wing is not functioning correctly. We need to know what kind of person God is so we can understand what kind of control he desires. The scripture speaks of God like this:

"My thoughts are not your thoughts, 

  neither are my ways your ways," declares the Lord. . .

You shall go out with joy 

  and be led forth in peace.

The mountains and the hills will burst into song before you

  and all the trees of the field will clap their hands." (Isaiah 55)

It is also possible to know somewhat how good and great God is and not receive word from him. This is also flying with one wing. Such people usually try to walk with God merely from obeying commands and applying rules from the Bible to their life. The good news is that God's control is not like a writer with a pen, but like a father with his child. It is guidance with growth. God doesn't merely want people to do his will; he wants people who want to do his will with joy. This kind of shaping takes something more like raising a child than pounding on a stone.

This is shown clearly in Jesus. He came to do what his Father and he wanted to do. Ultimately the control was and is in his hands. But he did not come so much as a king who needed servants, but as a teacher of apprentices. His instructions to them were as detailed as they needed to be. They can only be carried out be someone who can both hear God personally and joyfully obey him. Without these two wings the good news of Jesus does not produce much fruit.

Child-like in Old Age

 Even to your old age and gray hairs

  I am he, I am he who will sustain you.

I have made you and I will carry you;

  I will sustain you and I will rescue you. (Isaiah 46:4)

I may not be in my old age, but I have my share of gray hair. I guess we may never completely outgrow the desire to be someone's child. Although that can create a childish person, it may also be able to make someone more child-like.

As I get older I have had more obvious examples in which I have needed someone to sustain me, even someone to carry me and rescue me. Sometimes a sickness has taken all sense of pride from me with pain or incapacity. Sometimes I am faced with horrible problems in my family that I cannot face or fix. Sometimes I am hardly able to get out of bed in the morning from sheer weariness or despair. I find I can enter such moments in childish ways or in child-like ways. I can throw tantrums and kick and scream or I can grieve and cry out for help and comfort. They can be similar in appearance, but my heart is radically different in the midst of them.

Growth into child-like humility involves letting go of outcomes without giving up. It involves having a place to stand apart from my desires without disowning them. It involves learning how to love reality more than the illusions I weave. The God of peace can be found if we know how to seek him. 

The Band of Survivors

Once more a remnant of the house of Judah

  will take root below and bear fruit above.

For out of Jerusalem will a come a remnant,

  and out of Mount Zion a band of survivors.

The zeal of the Lord Almighty

  will accomplish this. (Isaiah 37:31-32)

Man, I like this. I like calling the remnant a band of survivors. It speaks not only of desperate times, but of desperate people. People desperate for God. People in a real war. The remnant then and the remnant now will not just drift into survival. It will take some real effort.

I also love how this band of survivors takes root below and bears fruit above. There's a tenacity to following Jesus that grips the earth with both hands and will not let go. No floaty, air-headed kind of faith. If it's real, it's got to grab life and not let go. It is actually people who don't seek Jesus in life that are in the illusion, caught in the matrix of this nonsensical thinking of this world or in the empty dreams of empty religion.

These survivors also bear fruit above. Like a tree planted deeply, their branches and fruit stretch above mediocrity. The fruit is the overflow of their life. This super-abundance is not found in pain-free living, great ambitions, or impressive credentials, but in rock-solid character that holds out to the very end without ending up cruel or indifferent. The fruit is lasting and deeply satisfying to everyone who tastes it.

Most importantly, the band of survivors only survive because of the Lord's zeal. Their near-escapes, their struggles against the impossible, and their lonely deserts are not mostly a testimony to their great skill or endurance, but a story of a great love that will not let them go. The Lord wants not only survivors, but overcomers. This band does not go it alone. They go together. They go with God.

 God's gifts and call are irrevocable. (Romans 11:29)

This passage does not say that God's gift and call are inevitable. For the people of Israel it wasn't. This is the idea that is often misquoted that "God works all things together for good." The verse says that In all things God works for the good of those who love him, who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28) For people who don't love God and live into their calling will probably find life somewhere between difficult and intolerable. Many things happen that God does not want, but nothing happens that God cannot redeem or overcome by his graceful power through our trust in him.

The good news about God's gift and call is that he does not take them away from us. We can refuse them, though. Over time our choices become our destiny. I was told once that God's will is infinitely malleable, but the will of human beings is not. God can always be willing to accept, forgive, hope, and help, but human beings will eventually come to a place of no return for good or ill. So we are told to seek the Lord while he may be found, call on him while he is near. (Isaiah 55:12)

God has wonderful things in mind, great hopes and joys in store for each of us and all of us. Our greatest challenge is trusting that fact and forming a life based on it. We cannot do it alone, but that is why God sends his greatest irrevocable gift to us: Jesus, Immanuel, God with us. 

 

New Birth for the World

We were with child, we writhed in pain,

  but we gave birth to wind.

We have not brought salvation to the earth,

  we have not given birth to people of the world. (Isaiah 26:18)

Going through pain and suffering only to find out that it was all for nothing is a terrifying prospect. I can see why it would make some people determined above all else to avoid pain. The picture of giving birth to wind - nothing. The struggle to conceive, anticipation during pregnancy, and the endurance of the pain of birth is all for the life to be born. The new life that comes out of the struggle is what brings meaning to the struggle. This is redemption.

Redeeming is buying back the years of toil and slavery. It is the deliverance from slavery to a promised land. It is the joy of comfort after abuse. It is the laughter of relief when we realize that the war is over. It is freedom, a birth of a life with God.

The opposite of redemption is judgment. It is realizing that the only way to deal with pain is with fear or denial. It is constantly ducking the blows of neglect and abuse. It is realizing that there is no relief, but only worry about when the next war begins. It is enslavement, the emptiness of a life without God.

What if the good news of the followers of Jesus falls on deaf ears because we live more under judgment rather than redemption? We give birth to wind in our own lives and are surprised that other people do not want to share in such a salvation with us. Of course the best is yet to come, but that does not mean that we need to live the worst way now.

Here's the thing: what if eternal life starts today? What if what changes primarily at the death of our bodies is just our setting, but not the kind of life we live? If all that is self-centered, fearful, worried, angry, and suffering gets burned away when we move on into the next life, what will be left of us? What if we are starting to build the home we will always live in right now?

I have had moments of fear about this, but the God I know is not trying to keep anyone out of the place he dwells, but trying to help each of us find our place there. The most obvious, glorious, and desirable thing about heaven is God himself. If we are interested in him, wanting to know him, or wanting to spend time with him now, what makes us think that the death of our bodies will change that? He will take whatever spark of interest we have and fan it into a fire to warm us and a light to guide us, but he will not run over us.

The salvation of new birth and new life is something we need to hear about, no doubt. But even more, it is something we need to see and hear and feel and believe. Even in an immature form, it is the light of the world. This life of redemption is simply this: The opportunity is here. Let go of whatever you think brings you life and trust this good news instead: God is working in you and on your world for good and he is as close as the air you breath. (Mark 1:15, paraphrase)

The Springs of Life

 Above all else, guard your heart,

  for it is the wellspring of life. (Proverbs 4:23)

We are still searching for the fountain of youth. All the temples to "abs" and "buns" testify. The diets, the meds, the meditations all point to this obsession. What if the source of life is not in what we do or what we consume, but in who we trust?

Perhaps the truth is that where our hearts go, our life will follow. I mean not so much our feelings, but our will. The center of our being. What does my life revolve around? The sad thing is that we often confuse the fountain of youth with the appearance of youth and then we end up with the foolishness of youth and an obsession with self-care.

However, I find myself more concerned lately with people who want to seem humble and wise enough to abandon such selfish self-care. They confuse self-hatred and self-negation with self-denial. Self-denial values the self enough to say, "No" to the self. Self-negation says, "Don't think about yourself or you'll be selfish." But instead it ends up fussing and fuming about other people or becoming obsessed with some ideology. Rarely does it come out at becoming a truly humble and kind person.

The heart, like a garden, needs care, not neglect. There are some people who do not believe in bugs and pests in this garden. They dump on the fertilizer and then guess what grows up there? But there are others who think that this garden is "stronger" if you leave it to bake in the sun with no water or care. Funny, but you still end up with bugs and weeds. Care involves protecting and weeding as well as cultivating and feeding.

Do you want to know what is springing up from your heart? It's actually not too hard to find out. What do you think about? What comes out of your mouth in unguarded moments? Likely, that's what's in your heart. That's where your life is headed.

I find I need to guard my heart because stuff starts growing there that I don't want. Stuff I don't want for myself or for other people or for God. Ignoring it doesn't make it go away. Neither does covering it up with will-powered efforts at getting better or looking good. No, changing the heart is a different matter.

I find that it begins with making some choices about what I think about regularly, my mental diet. That is where my first freedom lies: what I think about. I would recommend this as a great starting point: Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things. Whatever you have learned from Jesus and those learning from him, or seen in them - put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. (Philippians 4:8-9)

The Rising Sun

The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn,

  shining ever brighter till the full light of day,

But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness;

  they do not know what makes them stumble. (Proverbs 4:18-19)

First thing. Note that it is the path of the righteous, not the path of the self-righteous. It is unfortunate that righteousness has such a bad name nowadays. Really the thing that is so unsavory is self-righteousness. Being in the right is not necessarily a bad thing, but most people do not handle it very well.

Recently my wife had a sprained ankle. It is a re-injury. Parts of her ankle and foot have become weak over time. The bones in her leg have shifted. She is having to learn how to walk rightly again with the right support and exercise. This is what righteousness is like. Training. Recovery. The joy of such training is walking rightly. Less pain. Greater freedom and strength.

In this case the freedom is expressed as the coming dawn. I like this quote from Dallas Willard: "As you grow older, the soul beings to function like a storehouse." For most of us, it is easy to store up anxiety and regret and dark thoughts. But I am happy to have even just a little glory being stored up in my life. Sometimes it is something good I was a part of, someone really good that I met, or something wonderful I've seen. I know when I'm on the right path when smaller and smaller things bring greater and greater praise and thanksgiving from my heart and mouth.

Wickedness is like a steamroller over the innocent. We always have such good reasons for it too. In the end it is constant instability and anxiety and frustration. It is not only stumbling, but running into horrible things you never quite expected. It's like bleeding in the middle of a frenzy of sharks. The language of the wicked is complaining and arguing and accusing. It takes less and less to make me more and more frustrated when I'm headed into darkness.

In the end, we will follow our teachers. Into light or into darkness we follow them. It reminds me of a prayer my family says during Advent season: "O Rising Sun, come to us from heaven and shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of death, and guide our feet into the path of peace." 

The Master's Happiness

 Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness! (Matthew 25:21)

The reward I think many people want is not being in charge of many things, but being relieved of any responsibility at all. It seems many of us would rather have the reward of the person Jesus called the rich fool: "I'll say to myself, 'You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink, and be merry.'" (Luke 12:19) Perhaps one of the biggest problems we have with seeking the kingdom of God is that we do not want to share in the master's happiness. We would rather hold on to our own version, our little illusion.

Both persons have plenty of good things. One has doubled the wealth given to him from ten to twenty talents, the other has to build bigger barns to keep all his wealth he thinks he has made. However, one is a servant working with his master's wealth. The other deems himself a master ready to to be served. One is living for his master and given charge of many things. The other is ready to live off the wealth he has earned and devour many things.

Apparently the master's happiness is not just taking life easy, but in making life good. The heart of the rich fool is the same as the servant who buried his talent in Jesus's parable. Both were afraid. Both saw the master as a hard man with unfair demands. We find ourselves wanting to be master because we fear the Lord God is hard and unfair.

Ironically, God wants us to master our lives, taking the little we have been given and offering it up to him rather than hoarding it for ourselves out of fear and distrust. We offer it up is many ways, but all of them involve letting it go. Whether the wealth leaves our hearts or our hands, we have to give it up and work with it. This is life: sacrifice. We cannot sacrifice if we have nothing to give. We also cannot sacrifice if we will not give it up.

God does not want us to merely bury it or throw it away. He wants us to increase and learn how to share out of our increase. We must learn how to move from loving our gifts and wealth to loving with our gifts and our wealth. Only then will we be able to enter into our master's happiness, marrying great power with great love.

The Wells of Salvation

 In that day you will say,

  "Surely the Lord is my salvation

    I will trust and not be afraid.

  The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song,

    he has become my salvation.."

  With joy you will draw water

    from the wells of salvation.  (Isaiah 12:3-3)

"That day" is today. During Jesus's earthly ministry, there was a problem. As he proclaimed and taught about the kingdom of God, the people were looking forward to a time when God would come and set all things right through judgment and complete renewal. This was not wrong, but it is not the good news that Jesus brought. He was talking about the opportunity of access to the kingdom of God now. 

We face the same misunderstanding today. People talk about the kingdom of God in terms of building it and waiting for it, but not in terms of its presence and immanence. Jesus talked about seeing and entering the kingdom of God, not building it or making it happen. When he said, "The kingdom of God is near," he did not mean it was about to happen, but that it was entirely accessible. (For further information about this, you can read this blog entry: What Is the Kingdom of God?)

Isaiah was talking about the day that God would bring deliverance to his people. Complete deliverance. That day is happening now in Jesus. He says "If anyone is thristy, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will now flow from within him." (John 7:37-38) The complete deliverance is in Jesus and life with him through his Spirit. That life will not change in the future, but come to fruition. Perhaps another way of saying it is that life we can find now in Jesus will not change in kind, but in its intensity. When he returns it will not be so much something different as something more.

The "wells of salvation" are not just forgiveness to get us out of this life into the next. These wells are where we go each moment to draw living water for the days and years of sojourn in this time of exile. This water is the same, but the setting is different. In substance, simply living with Jesus is the eternal, abundant water we need. However, we often get obsessed with just wishing for a change of setting instead. For those whose joy comes from pulling water out of the well day in and day out, the Lord is their song and their salvation. He is their daily companion on the road through life. We do not seek escape, but joyful, obedient living.

The only well we can go to is the life that we have before us. Living water is accessible from within by the Spirit, but it is available only from within us. From our lives lived deeply and truly. We cannot access water from someone else's well, someone else's life, as much as we might want to. This desire is what keeps most of us from enjoying God's deliverance. We want another life. What we need is another God. We do not trust God in our lives, but are afraid of our life and the God Who has given it to us. Jesus has come to redeem, renew, reframe our lives, not give us another escape.

Only in the power and reality of Jesus's redemption will the wells of salvation open for us. Only then will it be a joy to access that living water, the kingdom of God in King Jesus. We will find our confidence. And we will discover what it is to not live in fear. We will truly be saved.

The Invitation, the Feast

"I have prepared my dinner: My oxen and fattened cattle have been butchered, and everything is ready. Come to the wedding banquet." But they paid no attention and went off - one to his field, another to his business. (Matthew 22:4-5)

The preparation has been centuries in the making. This feast is what everything was made for. The sun, moon, and stars to light it. The trees to wave joy over it. The animals to play in the midst of it. And people to enjoy it.

The people have been taught and led through the ages to come to expect and to anticipate such a feast. They were sent invitation and explanation through teachers and scriptures and even in basic human wisdom. It was all done to warm and soften their hearts to their Maker.

The final call for the feast was the most amazing. Last of all, he sent his son to them. "They will respect my son," he said. (Matthew 21:37) But it was not so. Even as his own Son came to share the good news of the Father's goodness and greatness through word and deed, all sorts of people gathered together to kill him.

The people may have thought this was the end, the last straw. But even then the invitation went out. News came back that the Son could not be killed, the invitation could not be quieted, and the people could not be unloved by the Father. Because of their disregard for his Son, they faced deep suffering. They had allied themselves with evil and now evil had them in its clutches and had its way with them. Still the invitation goes out. It's not too late. If, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! (Romans 5:10)

We have been brought back to God through Jesus. God's forgiveness was with us even to in the depths of our own disregard, hatred, and abuse. He stayed with us even to the limits of our own evil. God is still with us. His invitation shines even more brightly than ever. Some people do not want to be reconciled. They still find reason to avoid God. Some people think that the invitation is not open to everyone, but only to a special few. But we are not locked out; we have locked ourselves in. God opens wide his door by making peace with each person through Jesus. That is the invitation. The feast is deliverance from a dead, meaningless, empty life of trying to avoid pain, justify oneself, or impress others.

This is an old story. We tire of God's persistence and insistence for us to come. It is so common that it is met with disregard. We pay no attention and go off to our pursuits. It does not have to be that way. The feast is a wedding feast, uniting God with each person and with his people. Now that unity is finally found in God-made-human, Jesus. That unity is one of living life with Him in prayerful response to his voice which always echoes the BIble, in work and play that resounds with joy and power unexplainable, and in caring for other people in a way that brings about goodness and wholeness in their lives. 

The doors are open. The feast is ready. The guests are already arriving. Join the feast. Do not just listen to the gathering from outside. Do not sit on the doorstep frustrated about who is invited. Do not fuss about how inconvenient it all is. Your response to the invitation will reveal your heart to you. Entering will show you why both laughter and tears are part of real life together with God.

All My Fountains

“I delight in your lovingkindess,

not in your sacrifice.”

You speak to the miser in me

       who treats devotion like a calculation,

                   worship like a duty,

                   kindness like a burden.

I count and carefully keep track

  of each penny I give to you

  while pouring my abundance elsewhere.

Oh, the tax law I have made of my devotion

       making sure I come out in the right,

       with a foolproof justification of selfishness.

This wrinkled, grubbing miser in me

        needs a great conversion

                   a brand new vision

                   of the ocean of love

                   before each and all of us,

        instead of the dribbling drops

                     of a squeezed belief

                     wrung out like an old dishrag.

“I delight in you knowing Me,

not in your burnt offerings that burn you out.”

You speak to the sacrifices I hold close to my heart,

       what I’ve done for you,

       what I think I deserve.

But you hold something else dear:

       the moments I truly heard you,

       the times I was close to your heart

             which was breaking to be known,

             so that I might share in your life,

                                               that eternal life.

It was not my giving up you treasured,

    my self-important sacrifices

                                 from scarcity

                                 and gritted teeth.

It was my up-giving you longed for

    an overflow of an abundance from you,

                            a hundred-fold soil,

                            riches begetting riches,

                            a glory both given and achieved.

The little coal of worship duty

       blazes into adoration fire.

The slight taste for devotion fear

       becomes the unquenchable thirst for the living God.

The kindness calculated for appreciation

       is now a treasure shared without thought or worry.

Every movement
      is a dance.

Every thought

       is a delight.

Every word

       is praise.

Every moment

       is a wonder

              at what you are saying

              and what you are doing.

“What can I do with you?

What can I do with you?”

You speak to each coming and going day,

                      evening and morning.

Will you look and see that it was good?

When the cool of the day comes

           And you say, “Where are you?”

           Can I only say, “I was afraid, so I hid”?

Speak into my heart new words:

           “Oh God, you are my God!”

           “Search me and know my heart!”

           “You are my Shepherd,

                    I lack nothing.”

           “You have made known to me the path of life,

                    you will fill me with joy in your presence,

                    with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”

           “All my fountains are in you!”

Let me seek you

      by the quiet streams

                 where I am not swept away by noise and hurry,

      in the green pastures

                 where I have all I need of peace and rest,

      at the source of living water

                 where all my fountains of love flow freely,

        through and beyond the valley

                   of the shadow of death

                   where there is joy in the morning.

        I will not fear,

        No, I will not fear,

                 though the earth give way,

                 for you are with me.

You have made the way,

                          the one way,

       for me to be with you

                          always, 

                          even to the end of the age.

His name is Jesus.